Manitoba MoonSox became collateral damage last week, and the only way to save the dreams embodied in his blog, our blog, is to let it disappear.
It saddens me greatly to have to do this. I wrote in my Thanksgiving post:
I am thankful for this blog and the ability to write. Without it, I can't imagine the mess I would be. Writing is my outlet, my blog is my medium, the pen is my way of releasing my inner me, in order to make sense of this world we live in, the feelings we feel, the thoughts we think. I am thankful for all 52 of you who publicly follow the Moonpie and me, for those who hide silently in the background, to whomever it was that created blogs in the first place. I need this. I need this like an addict needs alcohol, heroin or gambling. And for the fact that this is my worst addiction, for that I am thankful.
And today, we must part ways. There is no sweet sorrow in that, there is only sorrow. But sometimes we must make decisions, we must recognize where we left ourselves exposed. Where we failed.
I can't elaborate, I can't go any further. It only adds more fodder, and I am so sad, so hurt that this beautiful thing, this beautiful blog of the bliss and happiness and highs and lows and struggles, is that fodder. How some of the most beautiful posts failed to inspire, failed to open the heart to the struggles and hardship of another, but instead could be used to cause such hurt.
A beautiful blog like this. A picture of a girl holding her dog so close, a line about what true love really is, the pride of being a daughter and a friend. Turned to ammunition.
I am sad. But the blog world comes second to family. And to dreams. And to hopes. So we must part ways.
For all you have followed us, thank you. Thank you for your encouragement, your understanding, your kind words. Thank you for cheering on Moonpie and I on this adventure, for laughing with us, dreaming with us, growing with us.
I truly appreciate it, and it is only with great sorrow that I am able to walk away from that.
I am sorry. But herein ends the beauty of Manitoba MoonSox and Me.